Where have we been? And where are we going? That’s the subject of my last video in 2020:
I ended 2019 asking the question: “Where do we go from here?” And thought I’d be taking a much needed creative break from the internet.
Then 2020 happened. And how was I supposed to process without making videos?
So here we are.
This year I made 32 videos for YouTube.
Dyed my hair pink. And made a TikTok just so I could show that pink hair transformation.
Found joy in journaling every day.
Realized that my cat may be my best friend.
Turned 30 in “quarantine.” An age at which I thought I’d have my life “all together.” But it turns out that maybe no one really has it together.
Got out of my comfort zone to do a couple’s photoshoot with Eric, capturing our lives and joy in this weird and wild moment.
Danced a lot. In silly outfits. Why? Because I can. And that’s worth dancing to.
And tried to find the beauty and inner peace in each individual moment.
“Stop and smell the roses, Kaitlyn!” has been a refrain most of my life. And this year, I did my best to do that.
I let go of a lot.
I’m still holding on to a lot that I need to let go of.
But it’s a start.
I’m really proud of this video, and what I was able to accomplish this year despite all the obstacles. I set out in 2020 to find a way to feel more like an artist than a content machine. And though I can still struggle at times to get out of the “machine” mindset, the forced slowdown of 2020 benefited me in this endeavor. Almost every video I made this year was created in love and through true inspiration. Though the grief and trauma of this year was a rollercoaster of emotions and affected my ability to feel and be creative, I never lost that inner spark of desire to be creative. It’s how I processed this year for sure.
If you saw something in this week’s video you missed this year, take a scroll through this playlist of all my 2020 videos! You might just find something that brings you joy.
A new year doesn’t mean everything changes, but it is a reminder that we have the ability each day to turn our compass towards the life we want. Small steps, big journey.
I’ll be taking a few weeks off of video making, but see you back on YouTube in 2021!